Mommy's impatient

4 days late now... the long weekend, here in Ontario, went by without so much as a "I'm on my way soon" from Smidget. At least we got to do some of our short-term plans, like see a movie, swim etc...

Mommy is definitely impatient now. She's reached the "Ok, I'm done with this part, let's go" stage which oddly enough has not improved my sleep patterns. Anytime she moves now in bed, I semi-wake up and think "is this it?? Is it time??"

Myself, I was two weeks late. They won't let that happen anymore. At most, 10 days. I can say with absolute certainty that his birthday will be "early August".

What do you do during this waiting period? I feel almost like a doctor... never completely able to relax when on-call. I haven't been more than 5ft away from my phone OR line-of-sight of my wife in quite some time. I haven't seen my loveable dog (being watched by my parents in Toronto) in over two weeks... We make plans with the caveat that we can't really commit. Feels like I should be doing something... just not sure what!

I can't read any more books on fatherhood, or labour, or being the 'birth partner'.

It's kinda boring, really. I'm sure I'll be craving this period of peace soon enough...

The waiting

Well, the due date for Smidget has come and passed.

This waiting is an odd experience. At the same time, I both am anxious for the big day to arrive and spend much time picturing it... and yet, I still want to be out and doing things! It's quite strange not really being able to make plans or commit to anything. We make tentative plans... and then I want him to hold off because I then want to do those plans! Back on the other hand, I'm eager to get this new phase of life started so I/we can figure it out and get accustomed to it so we can shape the rest of our lives around it.

So we sit, and we wait.